Fallin´ on nightmares again.

Hello...nightmares
Fuckin nightmares that don´t want to leave me and make me realize that every day I am more sensitive to the life..To everything in general ... to realizing that even I haven´t overcome my past,And they make me be worse every day in the life again

Everything began with a rare nightmare of it had remained invalid in wheelchair..Without remembering as having come to that condition ... though after a time I put of I peeped ... but not precisely to walk, but to commit morbid things

as the virginity to have lost with a anyone girl that I´ve found in a few bushes, thinking that it was too beautiful and hot, I decided to have relation with her

In his moment I enjoyed it too much ... equal she, though ultimately I felt culprit for two things

1.-I had escaped of classes
2.-I´ve felt guilty on having cheated my girlfriend .. with someone who didn´t know

I escaped with my wheelchair towards my house desperate ... loading a strong post of conscience in my mind and of there it ended my first nightmare of the night

My second nightmare began To the exit of my ex-college of primary education "Escuela España" It was going I walk to the center to seeing my dad and being going to have lunch with him in some place

Suddenly I see walking the girl that I liked when it was in my first year of secondary...she called Valentina <3

I begin to talk her... forgetting the situation before happened with the blog that did us to drift apart We were speaking about many things in the street, it was a pleasing conversation .. until we come to the bus stop in where she tape-worm that to go away

But I was shocked when taked my hand and she didn´t let me go to home..she began to talk me about their unlucky life and suddenly she hugs me...I couldn´t leave to hug her...Later she kissed me so much..I felt so beautiful incomparable,something that didn´t want that it was ending ever.
But suddenly I feel that there are people who jokes very much...I felt unconfortable,but I kissed her again...and the jokes And the jokes turned delinquents children's threats That I myself could stop striking to two types that wanted to attack ourselves...until arrived 2 delinquents more to assault us...we´ve begin to run to an shopping center coming up to the last floor fleeing of the delinquents...It was looking down and we were thinking about being alive,to except until they came and they were going to begin to attack us, when it finishes my nightmare getting up so scared..


This was my story...about my two nightmare and the matter of those dreams and my love about you Vanessa <3


Was it a dream ? - 30 Seconds to Mars

Your defenses were on high
Your walls built deep inside
Yeah I'm a selfish bastard
But at least I'm not alone
My intentions never change
What I want still stays the same
And I know what I should do
it's time to set myself on fire
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
Your reflection I've erased
Like a thousand burned out yesterdays
Believe me when I say goodbye forever
Is for good
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves it
A photograph of you and I
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I
(A photograph of you and I)
Was it a dream?
Was it a dream?
Is this the only evidence that proves
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
A photograph of you and I
IN LOVE...

Sadness will never end (?)

Aun sigo espantado por mi inseguridad,bajo mis miedos internos...quizas es la soledad por el hecho que te vas a ir mucho tiempo :/,quizas eso me afecta,tambien me juega en contra mi materialismo .-. ...es algo inevitable para mi,pero nose cada cosa con la que trato de seguir mi vida,me hace retroceder...Si..retroceder a quien era hace un año atras..o hace 5 o 6 meses atras,o incluso antes..hace 3 años dejé DE SER YO MISMO..tal vez este duelo familiar que causó la partida de mi amada abuelita,es algo que en su momento me afectó...aunque era el mas "valiente" de mi familia al querer afrontarlo...a tal punto de que 3 años despues,entre los sueños que he tenido con ella estos ultimos dias estoy viviendo un "duelo personal"..realmente mi vida no ha vuelto a ser la misma,busco superarme cada dia más...distraerme y poder recuperar esa gran persona que solia ser,estoy en ese camino...aun me cuesta,aun me he dado cuenta que me falta para poder ser totalmente quien era...quizas las epocas no sean iguales,pero tratar de que sean similares e incluso mejor


Lo unico que quiero es espantar mis fantasmas de una sola vez....y poder realmente ser feliz :)

Save me - Shinedown


Tengo una vela
y tengo una cuchara
vivo en un pasillo sin puertas
y sin habitaciones.

Bajo un marco de ventana
todos ellos fueron encontrados
un toque de concreto en la entrada
sin un sonido.

Alguien salveme si tu lo haras
llevate lejos todas esas pildoras
porfavor solo salvenme si tu puedes
de mi blasfemia y de mi tierra abandonada.

Como llegue aqui?
Y que salio mal?
no se podria perdonar
ahora estoy al otro lado de irme

Puedo duramente recordar
la apariencia de mis propios ojos
como puedo amar esto, una vida tan deshonesta
me hizo compromiso.

Alguien salveme si tu lo haras
llevate lejos todas esas pildoras
porfavor solo salvenme si tu puedes
de mi blasfemia y de mi tierra abandonada.

Salta en el agua
salta conmigo
salta en el altar
Duerme conmigo.

La respuesta mas dificil a responder
es Por Que?

Por Que?

Alguien salveme si tu lo haras
llevate lejos todas esas pildoras
porfavor solo salvenme si tu puedes
de mi blasfemia y de mi tierra abandonada.

Alguien salveme
Alguien salveme
Alguien salveme
Alguien salveme
Porfavor no me borren.

No Olvido.

A veces nose porque pienso que la musica es una forma que quiere enfocarte..o perderte (dependiendo de la situacion) en algo...nose,la musica me ha hecho retroceder estos ultimos dias,he recordado mas que nunca mi pasado..especficamente el 2007 en general,escuchando 30 Seconds to Mars,Young Love,Muse,etc...es algo inevitable,cada musica,cada melodia me recuerda algun hermoso momemento,o quizas algun dia normal en donde pensaba que mi vida estaba en un gran momento,pero como siempre...cuando crees tenerlo todo..siempre FALTA ALGO

Tenia amigos,vida social,un gran curso,incluso amigas,pero me faltaba una "polola" o novia..cosa que curiosamente 3 años despues tengo afortunadamente,pero que en aquellos años no tenia

Mi polola siempre me dice..."Debes aprovechar y disfrutar el presente por como se te venga".

Puede ser cierto,pero no deja de pesarme esto...precisamente un dia como hoy vivi muchas lindas,un 13 De Julio del 2007

http://takeemeeawaay.blogspot.com/2009/07/13-de-julio2007.html

Tal como lo publiqué en aquel link..fue un dia que quizas para cualquier persona pudo ser relativamente bueno,pero para alguien que aun carece de contacto social a pesar de sus esfuerzos y de logros de superacion...fue un genial dia

Por un lado..hay que olvidar el pasado,por lo menos no lo olvido,pero trato de no depender mucho de ello,por el otro debo pensar en mi presente...con mi hermosa polola que adoro mucho,que me ha dado una fuerte motivacion en la vida,independiente de cualquier cosa...mal interpretacion o lo que sea TE QUIERO MUCHOOOOO y que ojala me sigas ayudando a crear lindas cosas y momentos en mi vida

Por ultimo una cancion para recordar lindos tiempos..:)

From Yesterday - 30 Seconds to Mars

He's a stranger to some and a vision to none
He can never get enough, get enough of the one
For a fortune, he'd quit but it's hard to admit
How it ends and begins on his face is a map of the world
A map of the world, on his face is a map of the world
A map of the world

From yesterday, it's coming
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't wanna read the message here

On a mountain he sits, not of gold, but of sin
Through the blood, he can learn see the life that it turn
From council of one he'll decide when he's done
With the innocent on his face is a map of the world
A map of the world, on his face is a map of the world
A map of the world

From yesterday, it's coming
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't wanna read the message
He doesn't wanna read the message
He doesn't wanna read the message here

On his face is a map of the world

From yesterday, it's coming
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday, it calls him
But he doesn't wanna read the message here

From yesterday, from yesterday
From yesterday, the fear
From yesterday, from yesterday
But he doesn't wanna read the message
He doesn't wanna read the message
He doesn't wanna read the message here

Una nueva chance en mi vida.

Chance - Attaque 77


Día a día aprendiendo a ser,
miro hacia atrás todo el camino hecho,
lo que pudo ser y lo que fue
Mi oportunidad de comenzar de nuevo
y lo demás francamente no importa
Quien fui todo este tiempo? No se..
Quien soy o seré? Habré cumplido un sueño?
Intentando la felicidad a prueba y error
La vida es un momento y lo demás francamente no importa

Te miro fijo y me sonreís,
no pierdo un día lejos de ti, mi chance es hoy
Miro a tus ojos y me veo ahí,
aprovechando cada ocasión, mi chance es hoy

Tantas cosas que habré echo bien,
tantas que hice mal y que ni ahí me entero.
Cuanto que desperdicie sin ver
Que estuviste ahí conmigo todo el tiempo,
y hoy lo demás francamente no importa

Te miro fijo y me sonreís,
no pierdo un día lejos de ti, mi chance es hoy
Miro tus ojos y me veo ahí,
aprovechando cada ocasión, de estar con vos



ILY :* Vanessa Aracely Perez Mardones <3